"It's only through writing that I've ever been able to suppress life's personal disappointments. When I can't write I feel anxious and out of sorts and am easily riled, though I'm usually able to control my emotions..."
- Pramoedya Ananta Toer (The Mute's Soliloquy: A Memoir)
["Hanya dengan menulis aku mampu menekan segala kekecewaan peribadi hidup. Bila aku tidak menulis, aku merasa cemas & tidak keruan serta mudah gusar, walau selalunya aku bisa mengawal emosiku..."]

Tuesday, January 24, 2012

BEBASKAN AKU... CINTA


Tahukah kau hati kita satu?
Namun aku sudah tidak mahu...
Aku ingin putus...
Tolong lupakan aku.


Tahukah kau rasamu juga rasaku?
Tetapi rasamu menyakitkanku...
Aku mohon dilupuskan...
Tolong lepaskan aku.


Jangan bebani aku lagi
... dengan dugaanmu
... dengan khayalanmu
... dengan perasaanmu
... dengan egomu
Tolong bebaskan aku.


Cinta kita
Bahagianya di khayalan
Deritanya di realiti
Kita berdua...
Sungguh terkecewa
Kita bersama...
Sangat mengecewakan.


Selagi aku di fikiranmu,
aku juga turut memikirkanmu.


Tolong lupakan aku
Tolong lepaskan aku
Tolong bebaskan aku...
dari harapanmu.


Hanya itu cara kita...
Berpisah sesungguhnya. 

Monday, January 23, 2012

2012: YEAR OF THE DRAGON

The cheongsam is made from a limited edition stamp by Pos Malaysia
of 'Warisan Tenunan•Legacy of the Loom'

Friday, January 20, 2012

HATI ADA CINTA (BHG. 02): RINDU

Biasanya hari-hari CINTA lalui akan ditemani RINDU
Namun tiba-tiba RINDU itu pergi entah ke mana...

CINTA tertanya beginikah rasanya HATI yang sudah tiada?
Tiada CINTA yang selama ini sangat diingini

CINTA duga akan merintih hiba atas kehilangannya
Namun nyatanya CINTA termenung kebingungan tanpanya

Bagaimana HATI bisa kehilangan CINTA?
Adakah HATI berubah mengikut masa?
Adakah HATI sudah bosan menunggu lama?
Adakah HATI sudah bersedia melepaskan CINTA?

Biar apa pun keinginan HATI,
CINTA akan tetap ADA dituruti...

Mungkin CINTA sudah bersedia,
melepaskan HATI yang sudah tiada,
membuka ruang RINDU pada yang ADA...

Adakah benar CINTA selama ini... 
ADA pada RINDU?

Jangan Terlewat Nanti




Thursday, January 19, 2012

IT'S HOW I DRAW LOVE STORY

Frankly speaking, drawing a lot of comics for love story can be a boring trip if you are the type of person who is unfashionable. Even though you have a lot of love inside of you, but drawing love story, beside showing the right emotion, you've got to love fashion too. If not, your love story is considered a boring journey. So I got lucky because there was a trip in my life that I was adorned by the fashion world—from street to couture which has given an advantage to my comic drawing. Now, let me share with you guys how I develop fashion & emotion in my love story...

  1. What you wear on your head is how you lift up your confident. Either with our without accessories, bold or with hair, each character cannot simply tolerate the same style. Therefore, it's my job to deliver my character's head-style to define their characteristic. 
  2. In love, eyes play the biggest role for main characters. To my point of view, people who are in love always have bright eyes in showing how light up they are with life! So, it is important for me to always draw eyes that spark beautifully for each other. 
  3. Smiling, laughing, talking, sighing or hating can be interpret slightly with your mouth. Be very cautious if you want to draw the figure of your character's mouth, make sure it goes right with their emotional thought. Failed to do so might mislead the readers of their true feeling. 
  4. Accessories & jeweleries is another part of fashion that may translate how each character define their own uniqueness. As an artist, it's my job to creatively create my own creation of accessories & jeweleries (unless there's famous brand likes to sponsor this comic). 
  5. Clothes can be the most headache choice of wardrobe for my characters. I'm not really good with my own wardrobe. Though I have quite a lot of branded clothes in my collection, I usually ended up wearing nothing but t-shirt & jeans (or nothing at home... just kidding!). Seriously, in my experience, I have to push my creativity to an extended limit just to design my character with a perfect clothing... which most of the time ended up considerate than perfect. 
  6. You know what, drawing love story plays a lot with character's postures & one part of the body that delivers certain aspect of emotion is the hands—how it touches the other character with so much love, how the fingers string to the air or how it caresses the love one—make sure the readers have the right to feel the same with their hands. 
  7. Last but not least is the environment. Sometimes to much things in the background will drown the exact emotion of the characters. Therefore, always be very careful of how you blend your characters performance with the background you're about to draw. Don't go overboard! Sometimes, plain is better... 

Personally, your own feeling plays a bigger role on how you draw your character. To me, without the right feeling, I can never perform my drawing exactly the way I want it. So I need to have an experience to get the right feeling. Sometimes, I need to be cruel just because I want to experience the feel... the thing we call SACRIFICE — what I mean is read a lot of love stories, listen to a lot of love songs & watch a lot of love movies. ^_^"

Tuesday, January 17, 2012

A HEARTBREAKING VOW


I thought this feeling will last forever...
But it doesn't.

I thought you'll be my endless summer...
Yet there's winter.

I thought we'll stuck together as the bayou...
Sadly we move on like a flowing river blue.

I can't even remember you in my rhyme
When I need a smile in my charm
There's someone new stuck in my mind.

My feeling's no more like it used to
As my heart in despair to ever loves you
Because yesterday I've met a new true.

This is the end, right?
End of something I wish not
But hope has gone
at a forgettable salon.

Thus I promise
We'll never be blue again...

This I swear
I'll be fine not to amend...

Love you like a friend...
Swear I promise you then.