"It's only through writing that I've ever been able to suppress life's personal disappointments. When I can't write I feel anxious and out of sorts and am easily riled, though I'm usually able to control my emotions..."
- Pramoedya Ananta Toer (The Mute's Soliloquy: A Memoir)
["Hanya dengan menulis aku mampu menekan segala kekecewaan peribadi hidup. Bila aku tidak menulis, aku merasa cemas & tidak keruan serta mudah gusar, walau selalunya aku bisa mengawal emosiku..."]

Friday, September 25, 2009

SALAM AIDILFITRI, SALAM LEBARAN

السلام عليكم


بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم

Salam Sejahtera
kepada semua teman bloggers saya, para peminat & sesiapa sahaja yang mengikuti laman blog ini, saya ingin mengucapkan Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri sempena bulan Syawal 1430 yang mulia. Ampunkan salah silap saya samada yang sengaja mahupun yang tidak disengajakan.

9 tahun mengabdikan diri di dalam Industri Komik Malaysia banyak membentuk peribadi saya, yang baik dijadikan tauladan manakala yang jahat dijadikan sempadan. Saya hanyalah manusia biasa yang tidak lari daripada melakukan kesilapan.

Namun saya tidak pernah melupakan insan-insan yang banyak mengajar saya erti hidup, membekalkan saya ilmu-ilmu berfaedah bekalan dunia akhirat dan insan paling agung semestinya arwah ibu saya,
Allahyarhamha Sa'adah binti Hj. Fadhil yang pulang kepada Maha Pencipta pada 29hb. Ogos 2009 (8hb. Ramadhan 1430). Sebagai anak tunggal kepada Allahyarhamha, banyak pengalaman hidup saya timba dengan berikhtiar sendiri namun Alhamdulillah jalan itu dipermudahkan Insya-Allah berkat doa seorang ibu untuk anaknya. Al-Fatihah kepada bonda tercinta...

Aidilfitri tahun ini membuka lebaran baru buat saya dan memberi rahmat tersendiri tanpa keluarga paling rapat dalam hidup saya. Sejak tahun 2004, hanya dengan arwah saya meraikan Aidilfitri di Kuala Lumpur dan rakan-rakan yang tidak dapat pulang beraya kerana tugas. Syawal pertama atau kedua kami akan mengunjungi suami tercintanya yakni bapa saya di Bukit Jelutong. Namun menjelmanya Syawal kali ini, tiada lagi suaranya membangkitkan saya awal Subuh untuk terus sembahyang Aidilfitri apatah lagi juadah ketupat, rendang dan sambal kacang kegemaran hidangan beliau. Tidak saya sesali kerana redha saya dengan ketentuan Allah s.w.t.

Alhamdulillah, saya mulai merasakan kematangan saya di Aidilfitri ini dan Insya-Allah ia akan mendewasakan lagi saya justeru menjadikan saya lebih berusaha dalam bidang kerjaya yang saya cintai. Apatah lagi untuk tidak terus lalai bagi memperbaiki kelemahan-kelemahan diri yang bimbang memusnahkan masa depan saya. Ingatkan saya jika terlupa.

Mungkin ada diantara kita belum pernah bersua tapi sudah mampu menyentuh hati masing-masing melalui perkongsian bakat dan ilham seni. Marilah kita bersyukur kepada Maha Pencipta dengan penuh rasa tawadhuk dan syumul dengan anugerah-Nya. Sebagai rakyat Malaysia berbilang bangsa dan agama, keceriaan Syawal turut saya raikan bersama anda semua dalam 1Malaysia.


Bakat saya bakat anda juga
Ilham saya ilham anda semua
Sifat saya renungan kita bersama
Jasa anda budi saya selamanya
Cinta kita anugerah Ilahi sesungguhnya

Yang Ikhlas
FAKHRUL ANOUR (AYOUR)

Thursday, September 10, 2009

NOTICE OF APOLOGY

I'm so sorry to everyone who's waiting for update in my blog especially the latest news about my upcoming book, 'PENTAS REALITI: ASPIRASI SENI'. Since my mother passed away last 2 weeks, I tried to stand tough & looking at it as a fact of life. The first week it was difficult as I had to pick up my strength, energy & mind after more than 4 weeks of sleepless nights looked after her at Hospital Muar & Hospital Selayang. It was hard to realize that finally I am all alone in this world.

Yes I know, there you are standing & supporting me but nothing is the same compare to my mother, the only first person I call my 'strength' throughout the years since I was born. But nothing to worry as I was raised by her to be independant & think by myself. All throughout these years I've work hard to find my own path & reach for my dream to make her proud. Seeing her leaving so soon, I feel the effort seems worthless though yet meaningful.

9 years in this comic industry, I feel I've done nothing but nothing. But thanx to GEMPAK STARZ™ for giving me the opportunity to prove my talents. I didn't know I can get this far in the industry but how far I go, I don't feel like I can go any further. But am not giving up hope to make a good living either here in this industry or somewhere else.

Now, I don't have to prove to anyone or making anyone proud. Life is all about making a journey. I am unashame if one day this industry will throw me out & maybe you'll find me serving you a dine at restaurant or hotel. My duty is my responsibility, my dream is only a dream. I will do what I do best to keep moving in this industry. So I'll see you around soon with my new book 'PENTAS REALITI: ASPIRASI SENI' & as long GEMPAK STARZ™ support my journey, I will move on because this is where I begin & this is where it will end. TQ!

Yours Sincerely
FAKHRUL ANOUR (AYOUR)

My late mother with her beloved cat, Oppie who is still alive & well taken care by her brother (Pakcik Omar) & wife (Makcik) whom I call Ayah & Mak.

SA'ADAH BT. HJ FADZIL
(12th October 1941 - 29th August 2009)
Deceased at the age of 68 years old on the 8th Ramadhan 1430 (3.25 am) at Hospital Selayang because of Bile Duct Cancer (Hilar Cholangiocarcinoma) and was buried at Islamic Burial Site, USJ22. She left her only child (Fakhrul Anour) and her paralyze husband (Hj. Abdullah b. Hj. Shukor, 94 years old) who is now under the care of her step son, Dato' Azmi b. Hj. Abdullah. Sa'adah is the daughter of Al Marhum Kiyai Hj. Fadzil Banten, a well known Islamic missionary of Wirid Khaujakan & advisor of DYMM Sultan Ibrahim. She herself was well known in Muar especially around the district area of Pagoh as an aggresive female UMNO politician who also has done a lot for KEMAS (Kemajuan Masyarakat) in her area. She herself was a nasyid female group leader in her area & was invited by Dato' Jins Shamsuddin to play a small role in the film 'BUKIT KEPONG' as the wife of village leader (Ketua Kampung). Her death was the biggest lost for the people in her village especially Bukit Kepong & Lenga. To her son, she will always be remember as a tough woman who work hard for her community, stays loyal to her husband & giving an endless love for her only child. She knew her son will have her charisma but lead a better life than her. Knowing that, she is now rest in peace with Allah s.w.t. May we all pray endlessly for her good soul & be place among the loyal servant of Allah. Amin.