"It's only through writing that I've ever been able to suppress life's personal disappointments. When I can't write I feel anxious and out of sorts and am easily riled, though I'm usually able to control my emotions..."
- Pramoedya Ananta Toer (The Mute's Soliloquy: A Memoir)
["Hanya dengan menulis aku mampu menekan segala kekecewaan peribadi hidup. Bila aku tidak menulis, aku merasa cemas & tidak keruan serta mudah gusar, walau selalunya aku bisa mengawal emosiku..."]

Friday, August 17, 2007


Here i was during judging 'MSC Malaysia Digital Comic Competition 2007'. Ain't it cool! I was among all these 4 experts. I was blessed to be seated with them. Especially... Jaafar Taib! Such an honor. The man himself! Never thought I'll be growing 1 day to sit beside Jaafar Taib. Arghhhh! Anyway... life goes on & at least I'm happy, Jaafar Taib noticed me.

From left; Ben Ong (Writer of NEWSRAMA.com), Mohd. Hafidz Mahpar (Deputy News Editor, Starbiz), Me (!!) & Jaafar Taib (GILA-GILA creator!!)


All I can say.... TRIMAS!!!! Get JUICE magazine August 2007 issue!

Tuesday, August 14, 2007


Never did I thought that I can come out with another novel. Seriously NO! 'CINTA TUNGGAL' was back years ago when I did it. Since then, never I wrote any novel. NEVER! When I start working with GEMPAK™, then I started writing short stories. That was it. Nothing much, nothing less. Suddenly, here I'm! My second novel & it based from Kaoru's comics. What a cheer things to do! I love writing. It's like u don't have to think a lot but all u need to is come out with plans. So guys! Enjoy my second novel here... in market 18th August 2007.

Well, I love playing around with our curiosity when we fall in love. Some people will just take it, and some will have to think it first before saying OK with it. We can fall in love with anyone that's bright to our eyes. But who we decide to love? That's the ironic part. So in this novel, I took the effort to pronounce the situation in a mild way. For me, it's cool if we can see the deeper side. Only your heart can speak through it.

The best part.. Kaoru draw exclusively for this novel include the cover! Amazing!
ENJOY READING IT! Errr... sorry, only in Malay language.

Monday, June 11, 2007


Life needs an escape sometimes. I've been working hard everyday. My mind keeps processing creativity. Everyday I have to deal with a lot of things. So I put myself away from all the juggles. Away from home, away from work. 48 hrs now. At this very moment, I miss my cat at home. I feel like going back. He's been at home since I'm gone. Must be he's feeling lonely. Once I'm back home after this, I'll make sure he can get my full attention. My one & only companion that I can never let go. The most patient being, never scream frantically me. Always this sweet little creature with beautiful voice & soft fur. When I'm home, he will come to me & touch me with tender.

But there's always certain day that I wanted to get away. Being somewhere far from my usual routine. Quality time with myself, doing things that's going to make me a totally different person than just a professional character; who's busy with career & have no time for personal matter.

Last Saturday I went to a rave party (UV Nation) & watched my favorite DJ, Benny Bennassi spin. He was cool! 

Before he appeared on stage, I got a little worried of spending my time in this rave party. I should be at home, concentrating on my work & make a lot of money. 

But once Benny came out, he totally changed my mood. He made me adores him always. Better than his music. In my mind I said "He did what he loves doing, mixing musics." Now, he had this one big crowd of Malaysians who love the way he spins. He's amazing! He took me away from my pain. He wow the crowd! Keep spinning Benny! Love your music!

For 7 years writing for a magazine & still try to find my way becoming one of the most respectable comic artist, not an easy workout. I have to deal with my personal & professional life. Balance it up! My personal life totally different from my professional life. I wonder if I can skip my personal, forget about relationship & appreciate being alone forever.

But anyway... am not alone, I have OGA, my mom, my friends (2 different worlds) & those who cares for me though I hardly know them. This is what so great of being a talented & popular person. You can have anyone though sometimes you feel like "Leave me alone!!".

Ok... I'm satisfied now, throwing over my feeling in my blog. Whoever read this, now you know... I'm just human; There's great, there's fault. Hope after this I can just reduce my fault & keep up with all the great things. 

Today I got the news that GEMPAK™ has been rated A by Harian Metro. I feel great about it, at least a magazine that I've been working on for so long is able to get appreciation from another media. Alhamdulillah! Tomorrow I hope there will be another great achievement...

May Allah bless this magazine forever, change the Malaysians' view so we can be a part of the 1st countries; good in any field include Animation, Comic & Games (ACG). I believe we also can do it... like others can.

I smile through my hardest journey, and cheers through my glory moment.

As long as I hold this body, I will never stop experiencing myself as a human... love being a human, not perfect but can fix the fault only whenever is possible.

Saturday, March 31, 2007


"When heaven is about to place a great responsibility on a great man, it always first frustrates his spirit & will, exhausts his muscles & bones, exposes him to starvation & poverty, harasses him by troubles & setbacks so as to stimulate his spirit, toughen his nature & enhance his abilities."

"Before God entrusts a man with a ponderous task, He shall distress his mind, tire his limbs, famish his body, deprive him of his possessions, and frustrate his endeavors, so as to strengthen his resolve, fortify his mettle, and enhance his powers."

If smiles were raindrop.....
I'd send you showers....

If hugs were second...
I'd send you hours...

If love is water...
I'd send you the sea...

If friendship is a person...
I'd send you me...

"If a man be gracious and courteous to strangers, it shows he is a citizen of the world, and that his heart is no island cut off from other lands, but a continent that joins to them."

My Dearest Friends,

Perfect love is rare indeed - to be a lover will require that you continually have the subtlety of the very wise, the flexibility of a child, the sensitivity of an artist, the understanding of a philosopher, the acceptance of a saint, the tolerance of a scholar and the fortitude of certainty..

Nothing else really matters if your partner loves you for you. If you're heavyweight, you can always loose some; If you don't have perfect body, you can always tone it up; If you have an illness or scars, you can always have it treated.

But If you don't have HEART to LOVE, EARS to LISTEN to your LOVE, a SHOULDERS to CRY with your LOVE, a MOUTH to WHISPER about your LOVE...

Well... I am sorry, for God has granted me serenity to accept things I cannot change, courage to change things I possibly cannot, and wisdom to know the difference.

I seek not The Look of Adonis, The Charm of Artemis, The Personality of Ares, or The Strength of Hercules. I just seek for my Mortal better half; my ideal partner-in-crime; to share the bittersweet taste of life together, to love and be loved. I'm just an average human, with a great personality.

P/S: I found this quote from a website with his permission to paste it in my blog. I love this quote so much that I claimed the man to be wise enough to understand the true meaning of love.

Monday, February 26, 2007


(Boleh didapati di Kinokuniya KLCC & MPH Bookstore)

Bagaimanakah anda melihat sebuah percintaan? Benarkah sebuah cinta yang bermula dari alam persekolahan adalah cinta monyet atau sememangnya ia sebuah cinta yang akan kekal abadi hingga ke akhir hayat? Hasrat sebuah cinta hanya lahir jika ia benar-benar sebuah cinta pandang pertama.

Siti Aishah seorang anak tunggal kepada seorang ibu tunggal. Membesar dengan jiwa tunggal, dia meniti kehidupan seperti insan lain. Mempunyai harapan tinggi menjadi manusia yang berjaya dalam hidup. Dia mahu membuktikan dirinya biarpun tunggal tapi tidak akan terabaikan. Dia begitu yakin dengan azamnya.

Dengan berkat keyakinan, azam yang kuat dan sentiasa bertawakal kepada Ilahi, segalanya dalam genggaman. Biar apa pun cabaran, dia pasti mampu mengharunginya. Tetapi dia tidak terperasankan cabaran cinta dan betapa kuat ia mampu merubah seseorang.

Jatuh cinta pandang pertama Siti Aishah dengan Nizam telah merubah dirinya. Azam dan cita-citanya kini bertiangkan semangat seorang pemuda. Segala harapan kehidupan dan jiwanya meneruskan hidup sedikit demi sedikit bertaut harap pada Nizam. Tanpa dia sedari, dirinya kini hidup dalam cinta kepada seorang lelaki. Satu cinta sesama insan yang tidak mungkin dapat dibahagi dua. Bagi Siti Aishah, itulah cinta pertama dan terakhirnya... Cinta Tunggal.

Cinta Tunggal menggarap sebuah kisah cinta yang unik dari alam persekolahan hingga meniti ke alam dewasa. Membawa anda ke sebuah pengalaman cinta antara Siti Aishah dan Nizam yang tidak pernah diluahkan secara lisan serta jujur. Bagi mereka ukiran persahabatan yang tercipta diawal pertemuan harus kekal sebagaimana ia. Jika diubah bimbang bakal menggugat perhubungan yang murni itu. Tapi mampukah dua insan ini bertahan dengan tanpa mahu mengakui masing-masing saling mencintai?

Dari seorang gadis yang kuat beramal serta berpegang teguh pada perintah agama, kini imannya goyah akibat keretakan persahabatan. Adakah cinta terhadap seorang insan bernama Nizam mampu menjadikannya ingkar kepada Yang Maha Esa? Atau dia masih sedar dirinya kecil di hadapan Ilahi tapi alpa bila terkecewa? Atau inikah balasan Tuhan kepada insan yang sering menipu dirinya dan cuba menidakkan cinta yang telah ditakdirkan?

Siti Aishah dan Nizam mampu mengubah takdir masing-masing. Menyangkal jodoh antara mereka dan menidakkan perasaan antara satu sama lain. Tapi wajarkah sebuah cinta yang benar-benar ikhlas sesama mereka dan tercipta atas restu-Nya diketepikan kerana ego diri? Atau ia memang bukan jodoh? Rahsia rohani begitu dalam dan tiada siapa mampu memahaminya sehingga kita benar-benar mendengar suara hati... dengarkan suara hati CT (CINTA TUNGGAL).

PERINGATAN: Novel ini dihasilkan sebelum Datuk Siti Nurhaliza mengenali Datuk Khalid, maka watak Siti Aishah dengan Datuk K di dalam novel ini tiada kaitan langsung dengan pasangan tersebut. Ia hanyalah satu kebetulan. Harap maklum!


I have been living for 32 years. Love is what I know since the day I started to collect memories. Till today I believe in love but to be honest, I'm not really sure if love really into me. Not that I never fall in love but to be exact, I never know how to be devoted to love for someone.

Lucky for those who can be in love like a pair of dove and still in love till death do them part. But for me, I have another kind of love in my personal dictionary. I love my talent, I love my job & I love people. I fancy charity work where I can help people & love them. But till today I still haven't find the right time to do such things. But I'm very grateful that my work can at least make me do some sort of charity.

Working as a writer & a comic artist makes me able to touch them without even I have to know them. They are invited to my artworks & writing. By that, I can share all of what I want to share with them. Anything that can make me help them through their life, entertain them & at the same time they are helping me by being a strong person. How is that?

What makes me able to write or draw is people's life experience. I saw them on TV, magazines & during I'm out there with public. Seeing them is like seeing myself, understanding myself. I'm just another human being, I make mistake & I make amend. How I amend? I quote people failure or success & learn from the best.

When you love what you see, that's mean you love what u get. Understanding love is simple, but defining & practice it into your life is not easy. Love need motivation, dedication & understanding. Of all that, love is where we should belong.

Maybe one day I'm gonna love someone. I believe there will be someone for me. Well, don't matter if I'm 32 & still couldn't find love. Because I'm not in a rush.

I'm 32 & still look OK. But anyway, I don't care about look. This is the perceptions that I don't like about some people. They love you because they love your look. Is that fair enough to be in love? Part of it yes.

When in love with someone, you want to look good for that someone. You want to make sure that your lover feels so proud to have you. Though maybe he/she doesn't really care of how you look, but just remember, appreciate your lover by looking good all the time.

Does that look have anything to do with perfect body or perfect hair? No! Looking good means good hygiene, good health & smells good. Don't tell me you wanna fall in love with someone who has a bad breath & smelly feet?! Well, some people have that kind of fetish. But for me, I prefer to fall in love with proper people who knows what's the meaning of 'LOVE YOURSELF'.

Love knows no boundaries. You can be black, white, yellow or even purple. When you are in love, such things don't matter anymore. Most important thing is just be yourself & they will come to you.

What else about love? Love reminds us of Valentine Day &a that falls on my birthday.