"It's only through writing that I've ever been able to suppress life's personal disappointments. When I can't write I feel anxious and out of sorts and am easily riled, though I'm usually able to control my emotions..."
- Pramoedya Ananta Toer (The Mute's Soliloquy: A Memoir)
["Hanya dengan menulis aku mampu menekan segala kekecewaan peribadi hidup. Bila aku tidak menulis, aku merasa cemas & tidak keruan serta mudah gusar, walau selalunya aku bisa mengawal emosiku..."]

Sunday, February 26, 2012


I live up to her songs & the way she sang her musics. But when she married Bobby Brown, I just have to say one thing...

"What so amazing can be so stupid!"

Bobby Brown is an 'ugly' man, yet love doesn't care about ugliness. So it was not a mistake that Whitney Houston still in love with the man, until her last breath. Her love got stronger when they had their first baby girl, Bobbi Kristina.

Bobby Brown is a bastard to me. Every girl who is marrying a bastard, end up dead like dust. Seriously, no matter what people trying to be positive about her death, my opinion sticks to disgrace Bobby Brown. A man who is marrying a lady but doesn't know how to lead his woman to a healthy lifestyle, seriously that man is a damn-fucking jerk!

One thing I'm pretty much regret about Whitney, she tried to find her freedom through the arms of Bobby Brown.Yet this 'dark ogre' (Bobby Brown) had her to be destroyed. 

I hope this will be a big lesson to Bobbi Kristina...

"Even a father is a real bastard & should not be someone you can be proud of if he is the reason your mother died early for ungrateful reason! Such father is a man of disastrous!!!" 

Fate can be created by human (with God's approval) & can also be straight-given by God (without human's approval). Such fate created by human, it can creates victims like Bobbi Kristina & me...

"To all dickheads out there, if you're planning to get married for fucking reason, think before you're planning to father your children & loving your wife... don't let me know that's you."
To my opinion, at the end of the day, a father doesn't really relate much to their children if he's an irresponsible man, no matter what tradition tries to prove it wrong! But at a point, this kind of father can have at a least a respect...
"Thank you for the sperm!"

Monday, February 20, 2012



Dalam hidup ni kita mesti selalu ada impian & setiap impian tu harus ada usaha untuk menjadikannya suatu kenyataan. Dulu impian saya nak jadi artis komik, saya sudah jadikan ia kenyataan. Sekarang saya ingin menjadi usahawan selaras dengan impian untuk menjamin kerjaya saya sebagai artis komik.

Jika pada awalnya saya berharap untuk terus menubuhkan sebuah syarikat sendirian berhad, namun tanpa pengalaman saya pun membuat keputusan untuk bermula dengan enterprise. Ia sudah pun terlaksana dengan lancar sekali. Kurang sejam, permohonan saya untuk menubuhkan FAKHRUL ANOUR ENTERPRISE telah diluluskan.

Kini saya adalah pemilik tunggal FAKHRUL ANOUR ENTERPRISE & apa langkah seterusnya? Seperti biasa, saya biarkan Tuhan yang menentukannya di ilham ini & saya akan terus mengikut naluri...

"To open a shop is easy, 
to keep it open is an art."

Tuesday, February 14, 2012


If today is the day Saint Valentine was recorded deceased in the Roman Calendar, than it's the same day I was recorded born. So if today is the day of so much love to Christianity, it is also a day of so much love for me as a Muslim. Like any other days, we may say why should we have a day to remind love when everyday we speak of love until at one point someone might puke their heart out for hearing too much of love. That's right, so that's why today I'll pick up what I might have threw up days before today & make a pre-mortem...

"In a pre-mortem, you sit down, think about what you want to happen, and imagine that your efforts failed. Then you figure out what you should have done differently to change the outcome."
— Gretchen Rubin (The Happiness Project)

This morning as I walked out to the LRT at Bandar Tasik Selatan, I saw an old Chinese lady carried burdens; each hand carried a plastic bag filled with heavy rags. While the size of the bag, almost half size of her body. From a distance I saw she stopped a while & put the bags down to take a deep breath before continued walking again with the burden. As I was close enough to her, I could see her sweat ran down her neck. I thought of helping her, but when she turned to the direction I didn't go so I walked on to my own path.

Yet, I was troubled by the thought I didn't took the effort to really help her. So I turned back and tried to find her, yet she was already nowhere to be found. Therefore I returned to my own path again just to find that she was already ahead of me! With her I saw a Malay policeman leading her way to the right waiting lane of her destination at the station. With that I just have to say God has other option to help her instead of me, just not my day to do good deed at that simple course.

Then in the train, I saw a middle aged Chinese lady was generous enough to give a seat to a Malay lady & her young daughter.

Maybe there's not much to celebrate for my 37th birthday but seeing the 2 lovely occasions with my own eyes, I just have to say that God has so much love for His humankind... indeed!

Today with so much love, I'm reminding myself that if next time I get a chance to help another person, no matter what race or faith they maybe, I don't want to hesitate or find an excuse... just go & help for I believe, that's the right course for me given by God after all those love I've excused days before. 

P.S: I Love You

Monday, February 6, 2012


It's hard being a person in your own shoes when you're being compared in another person's shoes. 

Nak cakap lebih pun tak guna, tapi hanya orang yang kena jer akan lambat laun terasa bosan bila dilanda perkara yang sama. Apatah lagi ditegur orang (... dan lagi... dan lagi... dan lagi... dan lagi... ~) kerana keserupaan itu (bukan kesurupan ya!), sampai diri sendiri pun pelik... where the hell is our similarity?!!! Cara terbaik, luahkan! Bukan nak feymes-kan Bruno Mars (sebab dia memang dah No.1 Best Selling Artist Worldwide of 2011 by digital sales) & bukan nak menumpang populariti selebriti ni (sebab people are talking about it!), therefore enough is enough... 


P/S: Sebab saya minat ngan lagu-lagu Bruno Mars, tapi kerana isu ni... takleh nak feel! *sigh*