"It's only through writing that I've ever been able to suppress life's personal disappointments. When I can't write I feel anxious and out of sorts and am easily riled, though I'm usually able to control my emotions..."
- Pramoedya Ananta Toer (The Mute's Soliloquy: A Memoir)
["Hanya dengan menulis aku mampu menekan segala kekecewaan peribadi hidup. Bila aku tidak menulis, aku merasa cemas & tidak keruan serta mudah gusar, walau selalunya aku bisa mengawal emosiku..."]

Thursday, September 10, 2009

NOTICE OF APOLOGY

I'm so sorry to everyone who's waiting for update in my blog especially the latest news about my upcoming book, 'PENTAS REALITI: ASPIRASI SENI'. Since my mother passed away last 2 weeks, I tried to stand tough & looking at it as a fact of life. The first week it was difficult as I had to pick up my strength, energy & mind after more than 4 weeks of sleepless nights looked after her at Hospital Muar & Hospital Selayang. It was hard to realize that finally I am all alone in this world.

Yes I know, there you are standing & supporting me but nothing is the same compare to my mother, the only first person I call my 'strength' throughout the years since I was born. But nothing to worry as I was raised by her to be independant & think by myself. All throughout these years I've work hard to find my own path & reach for my dream to make her proud. Seeing her leaving so soon, I feel the effort seems worthless though yet meaningful.

9 years in this comic industry, I feel I've done nothing but nothing. But thanx to GEMPAK STARZ™ for giving me the opportunity to prove my talents. I didn't know I can get this far in the industry but how far I go, I don't feel like I can go any further. But am not giving up hope to make a good living either here in this industry or somewhere else.

Now, I don't have to prove to anyone or making anyone proud. Life is all about making a journey. I am unashame if one day this industry will throw me out & maybe you'll find me serving you a dine at restaurant or hotel. My duty is my responsibility, my dream is only a dream. I will do what I do best to keep moving in this industry. So I'll see you around soon with my new book 'PENTAS REALITI: ASPIRASI SENI' & as long GEMPAK STARZ™ support my journey, I will move on because this is where I begin & this is where it will end. TQ!

Yours Sincerely
FAKHRUL ANOUR (AYOUR)

My late mother with her beloved cat, Oppie who is still alive & well taken care by her brother (Pakcik Omar) & wife (Makcik) whom I call Ayah & Mak.

SA'ADAH BT. HJ FADZIL
(12th October 1941 - 29th August 2009)
Deceased at the age of 68 years old on the 8th Ramadhan 1430 (3.25 am) at Hospital Selayang because of Bile Duct Cancer (Hilar Cholangiocarcinoma) and was buried at Islamic Burial Site, USJ22. She left her only child (Fakhrul Anour) and her paralyze husband (Hj. Abdullah b. Hj. Shukor, 94 years old) who is now under the care of her step son, Dato' Azmi b. Hj. Abdullah. Sa'adah is the daughter of Al Marhum Kiyai Hj. Fadzil Banten, a well known Islamic missionary of Wirid Khaujakan & advisor of DYMM Sultan Ibrahim. She herself was well known in Muar especially around the district area of Pagoh as an aggresive female UMNO politician who also has done a lot for KEMAS (Kemajuan Masyarakat) in her area. She herself was a nasyid female group leader in her area & was invited by Dato' Jins Shamsuddin to play a small role in the film 'BUKIT KEPONG' as the wife of village leader (Ketua Kampung). Her death was the biggest lost for the people in her village especially Bukit Kepong & Lenga. To her son, she will always be remember as a tough woman who work hard for her community, stays loyal to her husband & giving an endless love for her only child. She knew her son will have her charisma but lead a better life than her. Knowing that, she is now rest in peace with Allah s.w.t. May we all pray endlessly for her good soul & be place among the loyal servant of Allah. Amin.

2 comments:

INDRA QIRANA said...

semoga tabah sentiasa dan teruskan bekarya

Fakhrul Anour said...

Trimass! Redha dengan ketentuan Allah s.w.t. ^_^